I have no idea what I'm doing. I know basic HTML but CSS confuses me and I never learn it probably and just edit mistakes through trial and error with W3schools.com. I"m going to make this main page as a blog because I want to not overwhelm myself with expectations by having a bunch of pages to manage. I'm doing better nowadays, most days at least than I was when I made my initial entry. I remember being really nervous about turning 20 but now I'm just desperate to turn 21. I have money off and on but everything I really want I have to be 21 to buy- sad.

I also have no idea what to watch on "TV" (streaming and my DVDs) anymore. I wish I had cable because I could mindlessly flip through channels at least, and you can't do that with streaming. I lately, I watch old Sunday night Adult Swim broadcasts from Zorak303's recording archive in consecutive order depending on whatever year I feel like pretending it is. I'm starting to act like in coversation that Bush is still US president. I'm so tired of hearing about politics. Seriously. Like just in general forever and ever because this two party, cultural cold war sort of thing that's going on just isn't working and we have became such a stupid failed state country. At least the US and USSR were both pretty sweet aesthetically in the '80s, I can't say the same about dems and repubs. I bring up politics despite not never wanting to just because it's inescapable right now and it weighs on my mind. I think I have like 150 total website viewers so nobody will see this anyway lol.

For some reason, I can't eat salmon anymore. I used to eat so much smoked salmon, salmon fillets, but now it makes me sick just thinking about it. Maybe I threw it up drunk one time and don't remember? Also, I should make this blog area a scrolling box because I wanna make sure everyone can seen my blinkies at the bottom.

Here are some facts about me:

• I'm a girl and was born and raised in Oregon, where I've moved around a bit. I have some interesting moving stories.
• I'm 19 years old but about to turn 20. Don't know, but 20 just seems older than 21. 21 has that youthful look-at-me charm that being twenty lacks.
• Although I wish I didn't, I like cartoons. Not kids ones- people loser borderline pedo adults who are way over the target demographic for those shows make me so mad. For what? I like Adult Swim and recently more mainstream ones. I have always liked drawing/comics & comedy, so it makes sense.
  • Aqua Teen Hunger Force or anything written or w/Dave Willis lol
  • Metalocalypse for a second show even though I wish I could choose one that's not Adult Swim. It's just like epicsauce.
  • Futurama, although I haven't seen the Simpsons very much besides when I was super little.
  • American Dad lol
• I guess I'm really into music? Like, I thought everybody was but somne people genuinely don't listen to music. Or just the radio or Tiktok Top 50. But I do really like bands and stuff which IS A THING.
  • Emo music rocks! My Chemical Romance, Fall Out Boy, the first two Panic albums. Also anything under the Decaydance label especially The Academy Is and Cobra Starship- LOOOOOOVE.
  • I love industrial, I really do! Mostly Raymond Watts, KMFDM, Rammstein, TKK, Ministry (LOVE early goth-y Ministry), Nitzer Ebb, RevCo, Sister Machine Gun, just anything less abrassive and "imma shoot up the school" both lyrically and in terms of sound. Just kind of funky. Like Marilyn Manson flanderized version of the genre, or MSI even. I love MSI.
  • DETHKLOK RULEZ
  • I actually love pop and rap my queen Nicki. And Bladee, who will always hold a special place in my heart next to Gerard Way and Lina Morgana maybe.